lauren's

it seems like years since it's been here
this is a picture of simon's ear. simon is very silly.
i like bubbles because she is silly and blonde, and she has no self-esteem, and she speaks lots of languages (like spanish, and squirrel, and kitty) and she likes crayons.
i am back home in eugene now, which is good, even though my house is quite cold. katie came home yesterday, and robin is coming home today. shan is not coming home until friday, but that's ok. brian is also coming home on friday. and we are having a party on saturday. yay!
i went to see amélie last night with erin and jack. it was SO cute. i totally am in love with that girl. in fact, i added her to my harem list, which i realized i have not previously made public here. i also saw lord of the rings twice, which i enjoyed, and the majestic while in reno.
my fingers are too cold to type anymore. i will go take a shower and then find some food. maybe go down to espresso roma. mm coffee.

houses floating - love is like that - we built on a river
i am a busy reading girl. i have read prodigal summer by barbara kingsolver, who's great; girl with a pearl earring, which was also great; am currently reading walden two by b.f. skinner, a psychologist. it's quite a strange book about a scientifically designed utopia. we talked a lot about skinner in my ling class this last term, so i thought that since he was here i would read him. also am intermittently reading thich nhat hanh as usual. i have decided to go to plum village this summer while in france, whether brian wants to come with me or not.
today my cousin david, who is a funny person, asked me if i was religious. i told him i'm a pagan with buddhist leanings. he thought that was weird. but then, all two of you who read this (hi katie and bill) prolly knew that already. actually, matt might be out there reading too . . . so i have three fans. yay me!
it was christmas and chaos as usual. i did pretty well though. i got nifty socks, nifty dar cds, and lots of nifty money. unfortunately now that i'm semi-grown up (prolly as much as i'll ever be) i have to use it for things like bills and food and schoolbooks, and not on fun things like clothes and shoes and things. though, knowing how i am with money, it'll probably be for both. and movies. lots of movies and cherry coke and dots. yay movies! yay movies with brian! yay brian!

there's always the sky -- let it hear what you are saying
it snowed here last night. my feeling towards snow these days is generally that it's much cooler if i don't have to deal with it. i don't mind looking at it out the window, but i don't really want to have to wear snow clothes, or drive in the snow. this snow is very small, though, and is melting quickly, and people in reno are used to it, so i s'pose i'll be fine even if i have to get in the car.
the trip down here was vaguely entertaining. there were people with extremely large, unnecessary-looking weapons at the airports. i don't really think it's appropriate. but i got searched three times. well, not really searched -- the bag i checked got a special x-ray, and twice they waved the metal-detecting wand at me. it was less annoying than it could've been, though.
my dad is leaving tomorrow to wine country with paulette, and he won't be back until after i leave, so we're going to go do something today. dunno what, but i'd better go call him.

i wanted to show you that i was more than the ocean
this show is what made me want to study linguistics. now if only i could do stuff like this without having to do all the work.
yesterday i colored pictures and made candles and sat around. oh, also i got sick. now i have a miserable cold. it's strange because there was a precise instant at which i got sick. i was in the kitchen making candles, and i was fine, and then the next time i swallowed my throat hurt. also i'm sneezing. i never sneeze. so now i am in a constant state of consuming liquid. lots and lots of tea with lemon, and orange juice with lemon, and water, and soup, and more tea . . . that's all well and good except that i won't get any sleep 'cos i'll have to get up every other minute to go to the bathroom.
shelby is having a slumber party tonight. i'm obviously not there. i was for a while. we played cranium and it got really loud and i was overwhelmed and unhappy. plus, i said jackie chan before they did, so we won, so we didn't even HAVE to be yelling. it was quite upsetting, really. so i'm home now, and soon it's bedtime.
i am going to reno on saturday. i have to fly down, which is lame. but i get to take the train back! yay! which also means that i am spending some time in sacramento, which means i get to see brian for an afternoon or so. unfortunately i don't get to see him play at the blues bar where they go, 'cos it's too far away. i'm disappointed, but hopefully i'll be able to someday.
ugh. i'm miserable. my nose hurts. poor me.

what i feel, i can't say





also see is it over yet?

i downloaded a new browser: opera. it's fun. it has all sorts of nifty features. it doesn't see some things right sometimes, though. but i still have my other ones so it's ok.
not much to say today.

you don't know how lucky you are -- you don't know how much i adore you
i'm lonely right now. i was listening to dar, as usual, which makes me sad, as usual. but! look how good i am: i am just missing and not doubting. yay me!
today i cleaned my room and rearranged my furniture. i just moved my bed around a little, but it feels all different now. it's nice. especially the clean bit. and shan brought her tv so i will get to have my tv in my room now. yay! now i can just leave headline news on all the time again. that or cartoon network are all i ever really watch, except the simpsons, x-files, and sometimes er. though they tell me i should watch the west wing.
bought some more books. more thich nhat hanh, a nice veggie cookbook, a collection of short stories by isabel allende, and another one by barry lopez (who was the judge of short fiction contest here a couple years ago in which brian won $1000 with this story [in .doc format]). so, yeah. lots of books. yay books.
today bill b (as opposed to bill h) came over and we watched shrek. you're going the right way for a smackbottom! then shan and her dad came, and mike aka jojo took us all to the olive garden. mm leftovers.
that's all. i'm sleepy. i have to work tomorrow in the morning, so i'll go to bed at a decent hour. plus shan and jojo are here, so i don't have to get so sleepy that i don't worry about noises.
today was a pretty link-ful day.

and with no seatbelt -- and i’d do it again
so. i have survived finals week! and so far i have two a-minuses and an a, with one more grade yet to be posted. this term was actually probably the easiest finals week i have had in a long time, if not ever. yay!
i had lunch with bill the other day, which was actually a couple weeks ago, i think. but it was good. we went to burrito boy, of course. i worry about bill sometimes, but i think he’s ok, even though his hair is too long. also i have begun communicating with olly again, too. which is good, ‘cos he’s funny. annnnnnnnd . . . today i will go to the mall with chris and to a movie with seth . . . and friday i will do something with bill bankhead. . . so many boys!! but the most important boy has gone to california again for break, but after much difficulty and rehashing of old topics, “trust brian” is on my list of things to do, and it’s going to be ok. really really.
soon i have to decide what i’m going to do for the rest of my life. right now it looks like: 1. graduate next fall. 2. go in the peace corps to west africa for two years. 3. go somewhere (UW, UNC-chapel hill, …) and get my master’s in library science. 4. ???get a job??? that’s about all i know. i like school. i don’t want to have to participate in the real world. and of course, the schedule is subject to change at any given moment according to level of apprehension.
and right now i am reading: love in action: writings on nonviolent social change by thich nhat hanh; the art of happiness by the dalai lama; pagan pathways by a bunch of people; the mists of avalon (yes, still) by marion zimmer bradley; and many things about translation for my thesis. blar.
i’m sure i will update again during break, since otherwise all i’ll do is sit around and read and hang out with boys.