but if you've not fallen quite asleep, i might call tonight . . .
and i was doing so well at not using counting crows songs for my blog titles! oh well. it's just that yesterday was a
recovering the satellites day and today is a
hard candy day. especially since i'm at work again, gr.
anyway, i found my journal, and i am v. happy about this. except it means now i'm all introspective and thinky about things i didn't want to write about here, 'cos i finally got to put them in my journal. (shh, no, i couldn't just write it down on a piece of paper.) i hadn't written in my journal since i was in salisbury. i'm a terrible journal writer. there are always huge gaps of time so nothing makes any sense. but, i am pleased to note, regardless of the yet-to-be-decided apropriateness of some decisions i've made, i am doing so well at not worrying about them! things will be what they are and i am getting better at accepting that.
yesterday i was about to post at gaelic storm's
website but then i realized that then the nice boy whose spoon playing i was about to compliment would then be able to read my web page about how he's my future husband. the website is stupid, though, so it wouldn't let me post it anyway.
i accidentally scheduled myself to work ALL weekend again. well, really i think i did it on purpose at the time, but now i wish i had a free day. it's ok, though, since it means i'll have to work fewer weekends towards the end of the term. and i found someone to take my shift on veteran's day weekend, so i get to go to the reunion with the girls! hooray! longview! uh . . . yeah. and anyway it gives me all this time at the desk doing nothing to be studying for the GRE. right. i got stuck about three pages into the math section. i'm really not looking forward to the whole process at all.
where'd you come from, where'm i going, why'd you leave me till i'm only good for waiting for you
i have discovered that
brian is not dead, which is v. good, i think. it's just that their power was shut off and then he was evicted and now he has no internet and i can't call him at home so i basically just have to wait for him to call me. it's quite sad, as it would have been good for me to be able to talk to him more often these past few weeks.
i've been busylauren this week with
college dems stuff. 'cos clinton's coming, and other such minor details. also have been spending too much time with
olly and sebastian, who has no web page, sillily. i'm not quite sure why i'm suddenly hanging out with international math students all the time but they are goofy and i like them. i'm sure either
shan or
shelby would have all kinds of funny things to insert right there. but anyway. on sunday we watched
adult swim as usual. on monday i think we watched
this silly movie. on tuesday we drank too much and olly skipped go club again. on wednesday we watched
another silly movie, which olly was reminded of because of
the creepy dude from the first movie. he was less creepy in the second movie. then on thursday, which was yesterday, we went to see a pirate musical written by my former resident, brian boone. his web page is lame. it has only broken image links so i have not linked to it. one of the guys in the play, which, incidentally, was called "the sea is a restless whore," was another former resident, brandon, whose last name i do not remember for some reason. anyway it was pretty entertaining even though they stared at me at the fart joke bit. also,
eric was there! yay. then after that i went to dinner with chris at red robin. as usual. today i have only seen olly & sebastian for about two minutes after i walked past olly's office and saw that they were there. contrary to popular belief, though, i was not walking past the office on purpose; i had run into bryon (
this is bryon's non-helpful web page) on the street so we had some miso soup and sat on the bench outside deady under the nice tree.
and tonight i am working until midnight. lousy work. especially lousy since both evy and
karen&
emily are having parties tonight, and after the midnight shift at the area desk i don't usually want to do anything but scream.
but this week i fixed all the stupid problems -- cell phone company trying to kill me, computer not working (thanks
ben, even though your web page doesn't seem to work), confusion in head, worrying about brian, etc. and then, on top of fixing of bad things, there was much positivity (?), such as seeing
my future husband, meeting
another future husband (see especially
this bit), seeing shelby who is not my future husband, having a new skirt to wear, finding my green converse low-tops, getting an email from my pal julia who i met this summer in angers and who lives in hamburg, and currently talking to my pal andy who is also german (where did all these germans come from just now?) and who i met in glasgow.
so.
life is good.
and now i am going to a peace rally. yay for peace. and miso soup.
yes i'm blue, but from holding my breath
it is important to always remember that even when things seem like The Most Important Things In The World, if you leave them alone for a week and then come back to check on them, you will find they are, in fact, Silly. you can even leave them alone for just an afternoon, if that afternoon involves shopping and cynicism. unprecedented staring from third parties helps too.
in related news, i went shopping this weekend. =) shopping has been known to not actually make me feel better, but this time it did, suprisingly; perhaps because
old navy has a style of jeans called "curvy," or because the skirt i wanted fit me in a smaller size than i expected, or because the v.nice boy at trader joe's flirted with me. (i really hope he'll put an
i saw you in the
eugene weekly for me. i want an i saw you. no one ever sees me. shelby says if i go out i'll meet people. i don't know if i want to meet people; i just want an i saw you . . .) i guess the previously mentioned unprecedented staring could be part of it too, if only because i think it's so funny.
i had written a much bigger blog but the stupid computer ate it, and now i don't remember what else i said.
this week: i got sick on wednesday. i did nothing. i sat around and painted my toes and watched stupid movies, like
this and
this. the first was just as stupid as i expected, and the other was actually less so. (specially since
she was cute and her name was lauren.) shelby came to visit and we went to
soriah with all the other kids. annd . . . i took a nap. that's my weekend.
but tomorrow may rain
tomorrow probably
will rain, actually. it's winter here all of a sudden! it is real shoes and wool coat and stripey hat weather already. i'm sad. i was hoping to be able to continue wearing
my birkenstocks for a while.
i am at work but now it is time to go home. i will post more soon, and someday i'll finish talking about scotland. but for now i am cold and hungry and it will soon be time for
adult swim, or, at least,
home movies, "the best show on television," according to
olly. then it will be home to bed, because i was up too late last night.
i know this room, i've walked this floor
chris may have settled the age-old (well, since we met, so three-years-old) dispute about the A(')s. of course, i insist that the apostrope is improper as it would indicate possession. but yesterday while we were at
outback steakhouse he said "what if the apostrophe is a contraction? and it stands for 'thletic'?"
so. the question has been answered. A's is ok to say because the apostrophe represents the missing "thletic."
