maybe you can keep me from ever being happy, but you're not going to stop me from having fun
a thunderstorm woke me up early early this morning. it was good. angry weather made me feel better.
going to seattle this afternoon till sunday or so. excited but grumpy. but i will finish my sock and i will start new projects, and i will see
shan and
shebly. so that is good.
when you open up your blue eyes
mm. area desk smells like a combination of wet carpet and sharpie marker. i know the marker smell is because i was using a sharpie, but i don't know why it smells like wet carpet. it's gross. fortunately, i get to leave soon. and i think i will go to burrito boy before going home. and since the Important Boy didn't call so i could tell him we were going to
the bijou, i think i will take some movies home with me.
amélie?
fellowship of the ring?
big fat greek wedding? prolly all of the above.
there is very little interesting news. i spent the weekend in
reno, which makes me miserable (desert, boredom) but which also is fun because my great-great-great grandmother (i think) was married to the man (myron lake) who
founded reno. it was too hot and i slept a lot 'cos there was nothing else to do. sunday i came back and then on monday i slept a lot 'cos there was nothing else to do here, either. today i worked at
the liberry in the morning and then came to work, where i still am. i brought my own computer so i could download things and play with it and be happy about ethernet. also, have started to think about new layouts for the redesign i will do ...
when i move to laurenisms.com!! yes,
bill likes to keep tabs on me, and since he offered to host me and therefore make it free, i figured i might as well do it. so, now you can email me at anything you want at laurenisms.com, and it will find me! isn't that cool??
falling flying tumbling
lauren:
sunburned. bored with work. frantically knitting to finish things with deadlines. excited about seattle. has ever-expanding borders of
geekdom -- is now a
comic book geek (thanks
sho). had a fun weekend with
shan and
shebly and
arlie also, is amazingly and irrationally
happy.
seems that i'm always thinking of you
am in portland this weekend to hang out with my sea-star while mom is in
salt lake city. i got here last night (in time to watch the famous
csi with her) and am staying through saturday afternoon. yay! tonight we are going to
chez machin for dinner, i think, since mom left money for us. here there is a nice bunny, and a nice stella-dog who is sleeping curled up in a ball like a cat. there's also an amazingly annoying parrot, but she's not screaming right now, so she's easy to forget about.
haven't blogged much in a while 'cos i've been in a bad mood, but not the kind that it's easy to blog about ... the kind that i think would be impossible to play the vague-blog game with. just ... blah. kind of depressed. (but not of my own accord this time! ha! tho' i think that makes it worse.) in any case, i'm better now. not entirely well, but better than i was before. i think people often underestimate the magnitude of my insecurity, and then are surprised when i become miserable.
grad school update:
uw gave me not the $10,000 i thought they might, but $28,500 out of an estimated $31,000 cost of attendance. it's mostly loans, though there is also work study. so now i have to decide between taking out $16,000 at almost 8% interest from a bank (which means unsubsidized and no deferred payments if my income is low) and taking out about $24,000 at about 4% interest when $14,000 of that is subsidized and payments are deferred if i don't make enough money.
oh, and, also i have to decide between living in seattle and living in montreal.
mom is mad at me for even considering uw; she says i would get a better job if i went to mcgill. but i want to live in the northwest, and i think it would be a lot easier to find a job in the area if i've gone to school here. at least, several people who should know have told me that. and i guess the
information school at uw is pretty well-respected. also, travel expenses would be a lot higher if i lived in montreal.
i'm afraid if i choose seattle (which i think i want to do) i'll be doing it for the wrong reasons -- scared, lazy -- and not for the right reasons. i seem to have convinced myself that the harder thing to do is always the right thing to do. is that true?
in other news, though i guess there isn't much in my life other than grad school decisions: I AM KNITTING A SOCK. it is the coolest thing ever! i'm going to finish it today. i'm so excited. i'm also knitting a bag for katie and a fun hat that i keep having to start over. yesterday i gave my sister the incredibly huge hat that i made to match her scarf. she says she wants it even though it's huge. i haven't been running since ... last tuesday. i kept having to work really early, which is not conducive to running. also was depressed, and though i know exercise makes it better, i couldn't bring myself to even get dressed last weekend, much less go outside. i cleaned my room! i didn't do very well at closet week, but i filled up a big bag of books to take back, so i feel i have accomplished book week and i shall try closet week again now.
mm. want nutella. must go investigate cupboards.
